2007 was the year I have been trying to forget but couldn’t. At that exact moment, I felt that the whole world seemed to walk out on me. That was the time when the only color left for my eyes to see was Black! Everything seemed to be so dark and empty…I felt so lost in a once very familiar place.
Back then I ceased to notice the difference between day and night. How it was to wake in the morning, neither sleeps in the evening. I was walking and walking out of no where. My self, my beliefs, my life…Everything was gone… dreams were shattered…obscured… Days have passed I couldn’t help but felt the pain of losing it! The business I called my own was ruined penniless, bankrupt….
Having my own business has been my ultimate dream. I forecasted myself being my own boss, having fun doing things I like to do, having more freedom with family and recreations, keeping myself busy and helping others. Being an employee was never part of my long term career plan. Employment for me then was just temporary. That has been my mindset ever since.
Of course I was never lethargic; spend most of my waking hours working, ensuring business is running smoothly. Along with my energy of being a hands-on entrepreneur were my relevant experiences and exposures in facing day-to-day challenges in the business world. What seemed to be lacking here? Why I was failure?
Looking back from this experience, I begin to know my self deeper and deeper, probing my strength and weaknesses in particular. It thought me to understand that everything happens for a reason. There are no accidents, nor chances, nor coincidence. God’s purpose took into account human errors and even sin. God never does anything accidentally and HE never makes mistakes, HE has a reason for everything he creates. I can say that it wasn’t God’s perfect time for me to do my own business, not yet in according to His plan for me.
Now I learned to accept that I shouldn’t forget this past nor regret any decisions I made from this experience, for it is a big part of who I am today! This was the pain and struggles that God let me live through to help me in shaping up my personality. “For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisible, everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him”, Colossians 1:16
